I think it's funny when people ask me if our baby was planned. It seems like an inappropriate question to ask when you think about it. However, I guess when you're kids will be 18 months apart, it's a reasonable question I suppose. So to answer the question, yes this baby was quite the surprise, but it was planned! God had it all planned out for us.
It was within the first month of school when I can running into the kitchen and shoved a pregnancy test into Jason's face demanding him to "LOOK!" Jason, thinking it was negative... looked and just shoved it off and said, awwww well we can try again. And I said... "NO LOOK you dumb dumb" and then he proceeded to laugh for the next five minutes.
It's not that I was angry... it's just that it wasn't MY plan. I had just started the year, and now I was finding out I may not even make it through the school year. It's always been in the back my head that once we had a second kid I would stay at home. So when I found out it was going to happen sooner rather than later, I was a little thrown off. It's taken me a while to warm up to the idea of having another kid. What helped me get over myself, was knowing that the Lord has a plan for us, he won't give me more than I can handle, and that His plan is far better than anything I could come up with myself.
So, for now... I will finish off the year. The baby is due June 6 and school is out June 11!! Maybe we'll make it. I'm having a hard time with the job decision. I love my job. I love my family. If I don't work, that's half our family income... gone. It would be quite the adjustment. I guess the one hard part is that now I feel forced into stopping my career for the time being, instead of choosing to. I still don't know what I'm going to do. Obviously, I do still have a choice. I have some time to think about it though.
In other news, dating back to October... here's Sara and her two little friends Ben and Isaiah for Halloween. We thought Sara would get a kick out of seeing herself as Minnie.
This girl and her books. It makes me so happy. She loves to sit in her chair at our house and she loves being in the library area at school. Now, she'll even drag a book over to one of us, crawl in our lap, and hand us the book. She's so stinkin cute!
And Sara had her first birthday. Here's some fun shots of that.
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| First cake! She was so dainty |
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| Sara and her little baby friends! |
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| She was so pooped. |
