Friday, May 19, 2017

The Final Birth Story

The hardest thing, for me to deal with, about pregnancy is just the waiting, the unknown of when and how it'll happen. It really was hard waking up everyday wondering if it would be the day and then falling asleep disappointed. So the morning of the 17th, I just had a little talk with my belly and said, "You need to come out or you'll end up being forced out which won't be nearly as nice for anyone!" Then I said a little prayer.

Later that day after lunch is when it started. I was getting some small, random contractions and I didn't want to mention it to anyone because I was afraid they would stop and go away. So we went on with life and ended up going out to dinner. I had some contractions in the car and Jason started getting all freaked out, but I was just not sure if it was the real deal or not. When we got home from eating though, I kinda just knew things were going to happen so I started getting everything ready. This all started around 7pm. That's when the contractions started getting about 15 minutes apart. Then it really just picked up from there. Around 8 they were 8-10 minutes apart. And we started contemplating if we should get the girls taken care of. Our original plan was to take them to a friend's house from church. It ended up that our friend was able to come over to our house and sleep here with the girls while we went to the hospital!! It all worked out so well!

We didn't actually end up going to the hospital until about 11:45, just because I wanted to make sure we were a consistent 5 minutes apart. So we got to the hospital at midnight and got checked in. I was 5cm dilated when we first got there. And it was just crazy because she must have known we were there because the contractions got closer and stronger. You could tell they were a smidge worried because they were moving pretty fast to get everything taken care of. I don't remember what time it was when I got my epidural, maybe 1:30 or 2...but oh my goodness it was amazing! I wasn't sure if I was going to do pain killers, but honestly... I had been up since 6am and it was now the middle of the night. I just needed some relief. Sadly, after the epidural, I got the shakes really bad. It was awful.

It was around maybe 2:15?? My water bursted, not broke... it seriously like POPPED! It was crazy and I'm happy it didn't happen like that in public. The nurse that was with me poked her head out into the hall to tell the people out there that my water had broke and I just heard them all say "YAY!" And the doctor came in and was like, yeah this is happening soon let's get ready. So they brought everything in, but having the epidural, I wasn't sure when I needed to push. So at about 2:40 maybe he tells me, "Alright on the next contraction we're going to push!" And then it was just quiet and everyone was staring at the chart watching my contractions and there just wasn't a contraction coming!! haha It took 3 minutes for one to start up! It took 3 series of pushing and she was out at 2:51am. They held her up and put her on my chest and I remember thinking first "she has my nose!" and second "holy crap that's a giant looking baby!" It was just so awesome to have it be done! That was my one motivator through all of this... "You can do this Melissa... just get through this and then you don't ever have to do it again!"

So there she was! My final baby girl. Weighing 8lbs 7 oz, the biggest of them all. She just LOOKS chunky too. Her legs have some meat on them, not little chicken legs like the other two. 21 1/2 inches long and tall like her sisters. As soon as I could walk they took us over to recovery and Jason stayed with  us until about 7 the next morning and then went to grab the girls to meet baby Hailey. Sara was beaming when she came in! She was SO excited about seeing her new baby Chiefy! Jordyn... she didn't really care too much. She liked to look at her but wasn't too impressed. Although she did wave and say "goodbye baby!!" when they left that day.

Our hospital stay was short and luckily nothing to major was wrong with either of us. So we packed up at came home at lunch time today on the 19th! It's been a struggle being home just because at the hospital it was just me and Hailey. So, when we got home I just wanted to cuddle, but I feel like I spent most of my time correctly and disciplining the other two girls. It'll just take some getting use to.

So, she's here! And we're just working on getting adjusted to our family of five. :)

Headed Home!

Wednesday, April 12, 2017

Hailey James

This time around it's been iffy with our little girl's name. With the other two, once we found a name we both liked, we stuck with it and didn't think about it again. But this time around, I knew I liked Hailey James right off, and just waited for Jason to be on board... Then I just kept thinking and searching for other names out there. It was very annoying. But ultimately, we kept coming back to Hailey and it's super cute when Sara says it.

So, it's done now. No turning back. Her name is on a onesie and that's that. So here's a little story about how we came up with it. I have actually had the name on my list when I was pregnant with Sara and Jordyn. But for some reason, it just didn't stick then! I'm not huge on the meaning, "bale of hay"... but then again Melissa means "honey bee..." You just can't win them all. Now the James part of the name is what made me fall in love with Hailey even more. Jason's first name is James and it's a tradition in his family to use it, and sadly we're cutting off the Lawyer line on his Grandfather's side. We won't have a boy to use it with, so Hailey will get the privileged of carrying on a little bit of Daddy's family line.

Now we just wait. And wait. And I'll just become an even more annoyed, giant, disfunctional pregnant women during the next month. And we'll just hope and pray she doesn't come too late, because I... AM... DONE... (I also can't wait to meet her)

Here are some maternity pictures to enjoy as well! 
This was really the whole mood of the shoot... I'm impressed she got other good shots of us.

Friday, April 7, 2017

Baby #3 Predictions!

To keep with tradition. Here's our baby predictions! We even added Sara's predictions in it. Sadly, this baby didn't get an in depth prediction list. haha No one ain't got time for that. ;) But we love her and can't wait to meet her... like seriously! 
Mommy's Prediction
Eye Color: Grey blue
Hair Color: Darker blonde
Skin Color: Yellow because she'll have jaundice 
Bald or Full Head of Hair: Only a little bit of fuzzy hair
Hair Type: Curly like Sara
Who Will She Look Like: She'll look like her sisters
How much will she weigh: 8 lbs 6 oz
How long will she be: 21 1/2 inches
Arrival: Late.... sadly. I'm hoping it'll be May 13th because that's when my grandma's birthday was. 
Traits She'll Probably Get: 
1. Calm and mellow 
2. Love watching her sisters
3. Different thumbs. I'm still holding out for a kid with the same weirdness as me!

Daddy's Prediction
Eye Color: Light blue
Hair Color: Blonde
Skin Color: Pink
Bald or Full Head of Hair: Full Head of Hair
Hair Type: Curly
Who Will She Look Like: Mommy
How much will she weigh: 8 lbs 15 oz
How long will she be: 21 inches
Arrival: 5 Days late
Traits She'll Probably Get:
1. Constant hunger "I want a snack" 
2. Goofy silly
3. Dare devil
Sara's Prediction
Eye Color: Ummmm PURPLE!
Hair Color: Blue
Skin Color: Pink
Bald or Full Head of Hair: Bald like Daddy
Hair Type: Straight
Who Will She Look Like: A dinosaur! 
How much will she weigh: 3 pounds... cuz I'm three years old and I want her to match me. 
How long will she be: Like "this tall"... like she is going to be my age. *counts on fingers...* THREE
Arrival: On time
Traits She'll Probably Get: 
1. She's going to play in the snow
2. She'll like to eat peas and carrots
3. Be like me!
James Jason Lawyer
Born on May 27, 1983 at 7:30 AM (His due date)
Weighed 9 pounds 3 ounces
His length was 21 1/2 inches

Melissa Nicole Thomas
Born on April 29, 1986 at 7:19 AM (Her due date)
Weighed 9 pounds 6 ounces
Her length was 21 1/4 inches

Sara Nicole Lawyer
Born on November 20, 2013 at 10:48pm (10 days passed)
Weighed 9 pounds 6 ounces
Her length was 21 1/2 inches

Jordyn Elizabeth Lawyer
Born on June 12, 2015 at 2:30pm (7 days passed)
Weighed 8 pounds 2 ounces
Her length was 21 inches

"Chiefy" James Lawyer
Born on ???
Weighed ???
Length ???

Saturday, March 25, 2017

An Update from the North

For some reason I've been thinking that this move was going to be so easy. We would get up here, get a house quickly and fall in love with it, get our household goods right away, meet new people and have tons of close friends right away. I imagined we'd love our new neighborhood and become best friends with our neighbors and they'd have two kids and one on the way too. The snow would be so beautiful and magical. And we'd just be settled and happy and life would be awesome.
But life didn't go that way. There have been so many times these last couple weeks when I've just asked God, "What is this happen for?" or "How is this going to turn out so it's glorifying to you?" I honestly has just felt like one thing after another since we got here. That beautiful snow... no, it's ice and it's so ugly on the side of the road. ha Yes, it's beautiful here, but the city of Anchorage is kinda just down right ugly. We bought our new van when we got up here, which took longer than we thought... but I DO love that van. The day we bought it, I lost my ID card inside it somewhere! If you're a military wife, you know how incredibly life altering it is NOT to have your ID card! So we wasted that whole morning getting a new one. The houses we were offered we awful. They were just not good for our family, and we just were not comfortable with getting a house off base because we don't know the area. The house we ended up getting on base has some great room! But now that we're in it, every day we find something else that is broken. It's awful. The least they could have done was give up a properly working house. The garage smells like cigarette smoke and it lingers in the house. BLEH. Then there's the children... Sara decided to finally turn on her three year old snotty self, and Jordyn, well she's just more clingy than she already has been... And there has been SO much wasted money since we've gotten here, or rather unplanned purchases we weren't expecting. There are so many other things I could mention that have gone wrong. But the point is, things have been pretty difficult for us. It's been a struggle. I really did have such high expectations, unrealistic expectations really, for our move up here, and it's hard to be excited about being in this new place.
New van!
It has definitely been a humbling experience. It's almost like I thought I deserved ALL this greatness to happen to us so quickly and God smashed us into reality to show us that we're not the boss here. It's all about His timing right? Which is much easier said now that things have started to settle than it was when we were in the midst of it. As I have learned from Moana... "You will find happiness right where you are." We will grow to love this place. We will make friends. We will get our house to work and stop smelling. We will survive this snowy place. But it takes time and I shouldn't get so frustrated that it's not happening when I want. It's just so hard being pregnant with two little ones and living on their schedule and just not really knowing anyone. It can get very lonely. As if being a stay at home mom didn't have it's lonely moments already... move 2,000 miles away from everything you know and it's just worse. I know we'll find our place, but when you're surrounded by boxes, mess, toddlers, a baby in your belly, and an unfamiliar territory, it just really brings you down. These pregnancy hormones make the sadness stay a lot longer. I'm not trying to complain too much here, just venting about real life. Moving is hard and it's been so much harder this time with the kids. I thought they were adjusting pretty easily, but I think they just feed off my mood and stress/frustration and it's been hard to be a parent... a GOOD parent. So just pray for us, is what I'm getting at here.
Jordyn's first haircut by Mama!
Touched up Sara's crazy hair
Sara read Jordyn a story all on her own!!!
But let's mention a few awesome things. As I already mentioned, we love our new van! It makes me so happy! And Jordyn gets to sit front facing and it's like a whole new world. We started going to a really great church. This is big for us. It was so hard church hunting in California, and I'm just so happy that we already found a place we want to be. We've met some cool people at this church and I'm excited about the relationships we will start up here. We got all our household goods with little to no problems this last week, and even though there are boxes and mess EVERYWHERE.... at least our stuff is all in one place! Jason really seems to like his new job. He hasn't gotten too deep into it yet, but he talks about the people and seems to get along great with them. I'm trying to kick my LuLaRoe business back up again. We'll see how that goes. I'm going to give it through the end of the summer to see how I'm feeling about it.
It was all smiles here.. until they got knee deep in the snow
Alaska zoo
We're still exploring this place. Trying to find all the cool places for kids and the yummy places to eat. We've been driving around to see some of the Alaskan beauty, but we could probably kick that up a notch. Still getting a handle on this $6 for a gallon of milk thing and other crazy expenses, but we'll figure that out.
The girl's new bunk bed set up! It's awesome!
Our new "old" house!

Friday, March 3, 2017

Our Travels

I'm sure people may be sick of hearing all about our move. Ha But I know there are also some of you out there that would like a little rundown of how it all went! It was a pretty long and emotional day yesterday. We started out around 7:30 PST and hit the road to Santa Barbara. It was a nice last drive for us. I know it's only green on the Central Coast for like 2 months out of the year, but when it is... man is it just beautiful! Plus it was nice taking in the green before we hit the white! ahhh 
 We made it to the airport and managed somehow to get all six bags, three carry-ons, two car seats, two toddlers and ourselves to the check out. Luckily, the ladies in the check out were so impressed with how cute our girls were and they were all just super helpful. We ended up having around 250 pounds of luggage. It was scary handing it over to them considering it was pretty much all of our possessions we'd need for the next month!
 Sara ended up having her own backpack of goods for the plane and airport. My bag started overflowing. She loved it! The bag was way too big for her, but she had her beloved Brach troll pillow in there for snuggling. If you're ever flying with toddlers, here are a couple ideas for you that really kept our kids entertained: Window stickers. I know I say it all the time, but seriously! We bought three packs of them for a dollar each and they just played with them everywhere! Then at the end of the trip we just tossed them because they were pretty gross by the end of the day. Stickers. Just normal stickers were so entertaining to them too. Sara had a cool one where she matched the sticker to the outline of the character in the book, it was awesome. Shoes. Who knew shoes could be so entertaining! Jordyn just put them on, took them off, and then kept going. haha And obviously, the iPad. Movies and apps. They're the way to go.
 The girls did amazing on the first leg of the plane ride to Seattle. Sara liked to ask, "Are we going to George Washington first?" haha We only had one meltdown on that plane and I'm pretty sure it was just because Jordyn's ears needed to pop. Poor girl. We had about an hour layover there in Seattle to grab a bite to eat and stretch our legs. Then we headed onto the next plane. I was telling Jason, it's funny when you fly to Vegas, because people are always dressed a certain way when they travel there. Well, while we were waiting for the plane to Alaska, there was a certain type of person that we traveling with us. haha Not in a bad way at all, it was just amusing! Lots of camo and plaid.
Jordyn lost her mind a couple times on the second flight. She had blown through her nap, so as soon as the plane was taking off, she fell asleep for about two hours. I was impressed, but the other half of the trip she was on and off going crazy. But overall, it wasn't too horrible. It was awesome flying over the mountains for the first time. At one point we were so close to the mountains, it was so cool! 
 Jason's co-worker met us at the airport, which was a great help! The girls and I ate chicken nuggets and sat next to the stuffed Alaskan animals while Daddy got the rental car. Then we jumped in and headed to base. I was a little overwhelmed with the first drive. It was just bizarre driving on the streets here. It's not quite home yet. I don't know how long it will take for this place to feel like home. I still imagine ourselves flying back to California in a week. There's just piles of snow on the sides of the roads, and ice everywhere... it's just a little much for this desert rat to get use to.
 We got to base and got settled into our very crappy "temporary housing." And that's when I just lost it. I know I shouldn't complain too much.. but this place is just not a good fit for us to LIVE in while we wait for our household goods. And it's just this brand new place where we really don't know anyone. It's so different that I imagined I guess. I don't know if I'm cut out for it. And like I said before... it's hard thinking about how long it's going to take before this place feels like home. These poor girls are such troopers, but it's definitely making them more moody and irritable than normal.  Moving is so hard, but I think just be displaced for a month or more is the roughest part of this whole thing. But I have to take comfort in God's plan for us and trust that he will use us here for the good of His kingdom. So, to look on the bright side, I just need to find something to involve myself in while we wait for our new normal to begin. This being in between is just killing us. And in other good news, while I was super frustrated and mad about our living situation, we actually ended up finding someone with a house who would rent to us week by week and it's three bedrooms! So that right there was a nice pick me up! That's all for now! The girls have just started to get super emotional.