Oh Tidings of Comfort and Joy

 Three weeks tomorrow! I look back at where I was and what I was doing on this night three weeks ago. I remember being very frustrated and exhausted. Low and behold... I still feel that way today. But this time it's a little different. It's more frustration because I've realized how selfish I am. Having a baby really means giving them your all. All your time, all your effort, all your love and affection. Today was a hard day; we're still figuring things out. We're still trying to wrap our heads around being parents and taking care of this little baby, and we're still trying to figure out how we fit into this new life. This evening, we took time to do a little decorating while the baby girl was asleep. We didn't go all out, which normally would make me sad, but this year... our house is cluttered enough! But it was a special time to just spend with Jason again. Just us two, working together and Putting lights and ornaments on the tree and setting up a nativity scene. I love that man with all my heart and I'm so glad to share every moment good and bad with him.

 

Listening to Christmas music, the good stuff... about what Christmas is all about: CHRIST, made me just refocus myself. Through this crazy time, it's all for the glory of God. Little Sara isn't just a reflection of her Mommy and Daddy; she's a reflection of Christ above all. For some reason, it makes me look at Jesus differently. It makes me wonder what type of baby he was. Was he fussy? Gassy? Did he sleep through the night? But really; having a baby now makes me appreciate what Mary did and what she went through. Ultimately, it makes me wonder how God could send his son into the world to be sacrificed for sinners. How could Mary watch that and know that it was all for HIS glory? It's just amazing to me. So, as I sit here, waiting for Sara to wake up at any moment, I just am in awe of God; overwhelmed by how much he loves us; and utterly amazed with the blessings he has given us. I've missed this feeling of JOY in my life and really just feeling God's love and all I want to do tonight is just shout it out.

I thank God for my cousin Julie who really helped me out today. She was very caring, loving, and wise and gave me so much attention and advice in my time of need. I've had so many people just reach out to us whether it be through a text, phone call, bringing food, sending up prayers, or just letting us know they're thinking about us. It's been a really encouragement. And I love my husband for all the effort, time, and support he gives his two "baby girls" (he calls us). Even through the stress and exhaustion, he's so loving and an amazing Daddy and man of God.

I'll leave you with some adorbsy pictures of the little Pumpkin Squash Head! :)

She's holding her head up so well! Super star!